Post by Christian on Mar 17, 2005 17:40:39 GMT -5
Hello all,
I have worked hard to give you an image of my own beliefs as they stand now, and have appreciated your interest in my posts. I am unfortunately spending an unhealthy amount of time on these boards, though, and have begun to question my motives.
I do sincerely care that people weigh my beliefs for what they are worth, because they have brought me great satisfaction and joy that I am moved to share. But, I think that in far more cases than not, my thoughts only serve as a kind of quality-control for fortifying your atheist arguments.
I've experienced the same thing; your arguments that my faith is irrational have really only helped me understand more deeply, and articulate more effectively, why I believe the things I do. Though in some aspects this is helpful to me, I do not think I should engage in this kind of discussion for personal benefit.
I'm also worried that my attraction to posting reflects some kind of personal pride in my beliefs or my reasoning. I think that this is a very unhealthy thing to indulge. I do not want to be a zealot.
I am glad for anything I've posted that you might have found enlightening, especially if it gave you an alternative to fundamentalist, unexamined or intolerant images of Christianity or theism in general. But, out of the consideration that I may be doing more harm than good to myself and others, I do not wish to continue posting.
Warm regards to all of you, and I hope your days are filled with love.
Kevin
I have worked hard to give you an image of my own beliefs as they stand now, and have appreciated your interest in my posts. I am unfortunately spending an unhealthy amount of time on these boards, though, and have begun to question my motives.
I do sincerely care that people weigh my beliefs for what they are worth, because they have brought me great satisfaction and joy that I am moved to share. But, I think that in far more cases than not, my thoughts only serve as a kind of quality-control for fortifying your atheist arguments.
I've experienced the same thing; your arguments that my faith is irrational have really only helped me understand more deeply, and articulate more effectively, why I believe the things I do. Though in some aspects this is helpful to me, I do not think I should engage in this kind of discussion for personal benefit.
I'm also worried that my attraction to posting reflects some kind of personal pride in my beliefs or my reasoning. I think that this is a very unhealthy thing to indulge. I do not want to be a zealot.
I am glad for anything I've posted that you might have found enlightening, especially if it gave you an alternative to fundamentalist, unexamined or intolerant images of Christianity or theism in general. But, out of the consideration that I may be doing more harm than good to myself and others, I do not wish to continue posting.
Warm regards to all of you, and I hope your days are filled with love.
Kevin